Well, I've officially left Cape Town and am en route to home. I'm really not sure how I feel about it. To a certain extent, I'm really kind of disappointed in myself for ending it early. I think that might just be me being hard on myself though . . . It's just hard not ever really knowing what you "should" do in any big decision process, like this one. You never truly know what the right decision is, and really just need to have faith that you've made the best one. I personally believe that everything happens for a reason. There's a reason why I came to Muizenberg, but there's also some greater reason as to why I left so early. I'm at the point where I'm looking for any kind of explanation as to why this was all meant to be this way, but am at a loss right now. I don't know why my trip to South Africa panned out the way it did, and I probably never really will, but I do trust in that this is the way it was meant to happen for whatever unknown reason.
If my flights are any kind of indication as to how good of a decision I've made this time, I think I made a good one! After those horrible flights on the way to Cape Town almost two weeks ago, this flight is already so much better. I'll take that as a good sign!
Despite leaving early, I would 100% like to return to South Africa someday! Even in the midst of winter, it is one of the most beautiful tropical places I have ever been. In my visit to South Africa, I lived and worked in the worst of conditions it has to offer. In my last few days though, I was so lucky to have been exposed to the other side. Under very different circumstances, I would like to return eventually. I would also like to volunteer abroad again. Having had this experience though, I think that it would be important for me to go with a friend next time. Living in what can be such a scary environment sometimes, it would have completely changed my situation had I had someone who was wholly on the same page as me as far as what we imagined our experience being.
After almost two months away from home, I am excited to see everyone again. I'm not sure how long I'll be in Littleton though. Between being on the coast in Ireland and South Africa, I've really missed Belfast, Maine and will probably be going there as soon as I can. That, I am so definitely excited for!
Also, of course the one morning that I absolutely must be on the Internet, I am going to be stuck on a plane somewhere between London and Boston . . . Wish my mom luck registering me for my UNH business classes . . .
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